I have grown up in the church…a pastor’s kid…a church rat. My journey has included rebellion, hatred of church, refusal of all things God, an embracing of God, jumping back in the church, building my life around the church, and then hating the church again, the church and me…we have a love/hate relationship. I hate what it has become, I love what it was meant to be and despite the numerous hurts I’ve endured…I still believe and still have a dream that what is in my heart about the church can exist.
For as long as I can remember though one particular phrase has stood out to me that I have never felt comfortable with. The phrase…JESUS IS ALL I NEED. I’ve heard it in sermons, in the songs we sing, in books I’ve read, in Bible College classes, and from numerous individuals. I’m not writing to offend anyone, I’m simply conveying my own thoughts and raising questions that have resonated within me for so long and I’ve kept them to myself instead of voicing them. Let me tell you why I have a problem with this saying and the line of thought behind it.
First of all, I must admit that for a season I accepted this line of thought to be true even though I didn’t really believe it. After all if the preacher or professor said it, it must be true. However, recently I have been doing some serious study on the life of Jesus, and specifically his relationship with the Father and Spirit, we call this the trinity. I have discovered for myself that Jesus’ goal was not to keep us all to himself. In fact, by his own words his desire was to reveal to us the love of the Father, for they are one, so by being in Jesus we might also be in and with the Father with the help of the Spirit. Jesus never had any intention for us to only know him. The invitation he gave to share his life came with an invitation to share in the life and relationship that he enjoyed with his Father, and with the Spirit.
Secondly, I am convinced that the church as we know is not the dream that God envisioned. We have organized, institutionalized, and ritualized what was intended to be a living, breathing, community comprised of ALL God’s children, which is to say the world. Instead, the church has become an exclusive place of membership, it reminds me of a country club…where you are invited to participate as long as you meet the membership requirements. I honestly believe that if Jesus were to come back, just for a quick visit to hang out in the world today…the last place we would find him would be in any of our church buildings. God is about relationship…period…relationship with Father, Spirit, Son, and relationship with creation and all human beings who have ever lived. God is not interested in our rules, our liturgy, our practices, and certainly not our religion. Jesus was not sent to start Christianity, or a new religion, in fact the Son was sent to end all religion and all religious practices, his goal was to invite us into relationship. He came to bring a revolution of the heart and a renewal of the mind, to cure our blindness and allow us to see the love of His Father so that we may grow to love him and come face to face with unconditional love and live in the embrace and dance of the Trinity. God knew we would need help to continue with this truth so the gift of the Spirit and the church was given to help us in this journey. While the Son is appointed as the head of that living body, we comprise the parts…and as hard as it may be for us to accept…it is not all about Jesus. It is about relationship, which Jesus came to reveal and sent the Spirit to continually reveal and disclose all truth to all people that death has been swallowed up in victory and all creation has already been reconciled when God was in Christ reconciling the world to himself before the foundation of the world.
What I have realized is that Jesus is not all I need, and that statement does not offend him. I desire to have a relationship with Jesus, and I do, but Jesus desires for all of humanity to have a relationship with not only him, but also his Father, and the Spirit has all kinds of ways of reminding us that this is true. I have also realized that I need people, that God never intended us to walk this journey alone. I have tried and that way has failed. I haven taken the view of Just give me Jesus, He is all I need…I don’t need this world or anything it has to offer. My friends I believe this is a lie that many have bought and believed to be true…for the world, this broken world, this fallen place, has plenty to offer because it is comprised of human beings that God intended for us to live in relationship with. This has been true from the beginning by the way, with Adam not needing to be alone, with Israel, with the Jews, and in Jesus the whole world. I love this world, I believe all things have been made new, I believe in people and while I am not of this world I desire to be fully in it. I love Jesus’ creation, all of it, and need and desire to be in relationship with as many of his children that I can. We need each other, not just Jesus.
Why I do I believe this? Because I have finally experienced it, I had given up on this dream and then I found true and authentic community and it was not in the church. It was in a group of people who were honestly seeking life, belonging, truth, and doing so by the sharing of life together. It is beautiful, I have found it, and I am never going back. I am living in relationship with people who know me inside and out, who accept me and have shown me more about the love of Jesus than any book I’ve ever read, any scripture I’ve tried to interpret, or any class I’ve ever taken. They have shown it in action, by speaking the truth in love, by picking me up when I couldn’t walk, by being a picture of the body living and moving together in ways I never imagined actually existed.
Do we need Jesus? Absolutely, we certainly do. Do we need to know His Father? Absolutely, if we desire to fully know Jesus we must come to fully know the Father. Do we need each other? Absolutely, the answer is a resounding yes…we NEED each other. God has gifted us with the invitation to live fully in relationship in the dance of the Trinity, and with each other. It is beautiful; it has nothing to with buildings, with membership, with attendance, or giving. It has to do with love, for love is the greatest of all and as we love ourselves for who God has made us to be, we love God back, and we learn to love each other…and that is the desire and dream of the Father’s heart. At least, this is how I see it, what I choose to embrace, and what I desire to live into.
Let it be.
Be Blesssed Friends…You Already Are!